At current, I just can't stand life. I hate myself and all my relationships seem to be going wrong. Some people are arguing with me over food while others are just making insensitive remarks about me. Subsequently, I am feeling drained! It has been a long time since I felt this lonely in my disorder and the pain of eating and then having to work it off is getting to me. It is like I just can find any peace at all or even find the time to do fun things. I'm either trying not to think about food or I'm working out to get rid of the food I just ate.