I got up early today because I had to get my bicycle serviced and repaired. Since the sun was shining, and it was warm enough not to need a coat, I started to look forward to going out. While my bike was in the shop, I went into town and chilled in the library for an hour. My bike was finished early, so after picking it up, I got some veg from the supermarket and headed back into town.
After looking around the shops, I decided to get myself a few things because the bike was not as expensive as it could have been. I found vegan mayonnaises in a discount shop which was less than half price than in the supermarket, so I got a jar. While in CEX, I saw an anime DVD called The Sky Crawlers, and decided to look it up on the internet. It sounded OK and since it was only £1.50 I got it. By now I was feeling pretty OK with myself; the bike seems like new, and I had found myself some cheap treats. I remembered seeing some salt on special other and decided to go back and get it. This is when it happened.
I had just paid for the salt and was on the way out when I caught sight of myself in one of the mirrors. Immediately I noticed my belly. It looked so round and fat, poking out from my midsection like some kind of deformed mutant trying to escape! I felt my heart sink and my eyes well up. There was nothing else to do now but go straight home. I could have stayed out longer on my pushbike, but my mood had gone from one of optimistic joy into I hate myself in a matter of seconds after seeing myself in the mirror.
Now, I'm glad I skipped breakfast. I obviously didn't deserve it anyway. Even now I'm home, I can still feel the fat on me, especial around my stomach; it feels like a fat lump. I'm a fat lump. I was looking forward to dinner, but now, now, I don't know. I changed my plans for dinner when I saw the vegan mayo on offer. However, I still used the mayo, but a reduced amount. Just a small jacket tonight and lots of tea. I don't deserve anything more.